Structure or Flow

Seems I’m always coming back to best laid plans and ideas that just never seem to last. Perhaps my habit making just doesn’t want to stick. Perhaps I just don’t function as well as I think in an orderly structured life. Perhaps it’s that I no longer want that way and would rather just go with the flow as I have so often lately told myself.

I guess the question for me then is how important is it that I have a structured routine? Certainly my work is not structured but rather contains such a variety of possibilities that I am rather lost unless I have my work diary noting meetings and where I should be on any given day and time.

But the constant within my life is that of change. So perhaps routine is like a round peg in a square whole? The I’m gonna do has been replaced with the Just Do It and enjoy mantra of living day by day and choosing what it is I want to do at any given time.

But the other constant ‘why’ remains.
Mid year, and my plans for staying on track with weekly photo challenged and art journalling fell by the wayside about a month in. Yet, my camera is always with my tho these these it’s more of my iPhone.  My art journalling is more of sketching though as always experimenting with different techniques and styles. 

Perhaps it’s time to hangup the notion of weekly challenges and stay with the mantra of do what I enjoy most at that particular time. Be it photography, writing, sketching, art journalling or whatever may be.

In fact, looking at regular prompts now does my head in. The structure no longer fits. Life has changed yet again.

Weekly Photo Challenge: Vibrant

Weekly Photo Challenge: Vibrant

I love synchronicity. I had come upstairs to grab food and noticed the vibrant red sunset from the window. I grabbed my windows phone to catch it before the colours faded… Of course when I checked the theme of this … Continue reading

Weekly Photo Challenge: Optimistic

Weekly Photo Challenge: Optimistic

Thinking about what Optimistic means … and how to capture visually … of course it’s time to scroll through recent photographs. I found a selection from the last time I stopped briefly at Kirra beach on the southern end of … Continue reading

Weekly Photo Challenge: Alphabet

Weekly Photo Challenge: Alphabet

Alphabet … this weeks photo challenge. I had to think a bit as to whether to post photos of words or an actual alphabet. Driving each day I see so many signs that just screamed out ‘pick me’ … but … Continue reading

Weekly Photo Challenge: Weight(less)

Weekly Photo Challenge: Weight(less)

It’s amazing how life can be synchronous. This weeks photo challenge of Weight(less) – showing the effects of gravity – arrived the week I travelled north to Townsville to work on Palm Island just off the coast. A 2 hour … Continue reading

Being

Being

Another year. New beginnings. Yet as one day turns into another we hold so much with the changing of a calendar number. The quiet time between Christmas and New Year is at an end. Tomorrow begins the new week of … Continue reading

Weekly Photo Challenge: Circle

Weekly Photo Challenge: Circle

First blog for the year after many months away. Recently I travelled south to Dubbo Zoo and was fascinated by these circles in tree trunks … Circle is this week’s photo challenge

Weekly Photo Challenge: Inspiration

Inspiration comes in many ways. For me, it is usually in nature. Sunsets and sunrises, trees, flowers, birds, scenery. The colours of mother earth are so often vibrant and rich. This morning I woke before the sun. As I saw … Continue reading

Life is Anything but a Fairytale 

I’m exhausted. What little housework I have done has left me needing to chill. And contemplate. How did I manage for all those years? Now I want to quickly get back to my ‘me’ time. It’s so vital to my wellbeing these days. It makes me wonder why as a society we tell our children and the generations that follow and our peers that they should find someone, settle down, raise a family. We remain lost in the fairytale of what we think life should be.

Yet the high proportion of separations and divorce, of domestic violence, stress and suicide, bankruptcy and financial disasters paint the real picture. It is anything but a fairytale. Yet we continue to expect to live it. Do we honestly think it will change? Someone recently posted a picture on Facebook saying that a fathers role is to raise his daughter as a princess. Seriously? Princesses need Princes, knights in shining armour, castles, servants and to while away a life doing … What?

Archetypically we identify easily the Princess. She whines, expects others to pick up after her and waltzes through life without a useful thought in her head. Well obviously Im not a princess to have this reaction, nor am I a Queen to laud and direct my subjects. Goddess most certainly. Not the Marilyn Monroe type in terms of physicality but certainly in terms of my persona. I don’t much like this world nor the humans who abide in it. I would rather be elsewhere. My patience is limited but my tolerance in many things immense. I know that we are capable of so much more than we exhibit. And perhaps that is why I become disillusioned at times.

So why on earth should we continue to limit, to pass on outdated traditions and beliefs. Most certainly they had a place in previous generations and society, but today? I think its time we stopped and questioned … Much more than we do. We live longer, we work longer and harder in a different way. Keeping up with the Joneses is drummed into us daily. Adverts and media direct what we should think, say, do, feel, buy, behave and react to. If we dare to express a difference of opinion we are bullied and abused through social media, considered weird and unconventional by others.

It’s a rare occurrence when good, peaceful, enlivening and encouraging news occurs. When we tell others to be themselves, to follow their heart and dreams. Sadly the need for monetary income beats on our door heavily. If we want to build that house, get that education, land that job we have to do the hard work, and gain the money. So often I wish for a life off the grid. But, following my divorce, like many others I have had to rebuild from scratch in my middle years. When previous generations were at my age planning retirement I and many others are hoping we stay well and sane enough to continue working another 20 years. For theres no knight in shining armour, no rich man to keep me as I would like. Its just me.

The fairy tale doesn’t exist for the majority but for the very rare and blessed. As much as I hate those who tell another to get real and accept what is, I think we are missing the point on that view too. But what is the alternative? To my children I have passed the following …

Live your life your own way. Don’t give in to societies conventions if it doesn’t feel right. Don’t marry that person unless you truly do love each other and want a total partnership in every way. Don’t raise children because it’s the done thing but think carefully what you want and what you can bring to enhance their lives. And not necessarily monetarily. If you choose not to marry or have children I’m really okay with that. I have no need to be a grandmother. Honestly in my 50s I’m way too young.

Take time to find out what you want in life. What drives you, inspires you. What your passions are. Where can you contribute and serve. Take time to be alone with yourself, to make peace with who you are. To cherish the quiet alone times. Learn to say no. Learn to say yes. To be discerning and appreciative of all that surrounds you. Know that its okay to change your path or to shake things up.

Decide for yourself what you want from your life. Don’t let anyone tell you or direct you to something you don’t desire. Learn to appreciate those who want only to walk beside you and share your life unconditionally. Follow your dreams and don’t compromise on who you are. Most of, be your own beautiful, unique self. Don’t waste time waiting to be handed life on a platter, it’s yours to make what you will of.

I stop to draw breath. My rant on this subject has come to an end. I did think it was headed in another direction, but thats okay. And my last piece of wisdom, its okay to rant, to get things of your chest. Its okay to think deeply, to feel, to experience every emotion under the sun. We are, after all, human beings in this lifetime.

Weekly Photo Challenge: Close-up

Close-up … I thought about my usual flowers, and will post another on banksias after this. What got my attention this week is the beautiful and delicious tea flower ball. Tea leaves wrapped round a flower, usually jasmine. Once in … Continue reading